{"id":132764,"created_at":"2020-04-29 19:44:26","updated_at":"2021-04-17 12:50:05","deleted_at":null,"published_at":"2020-04-29 19:44:26","original_id":null,"artist_id":66576,"title":"Don't Mind Dyin' (DMD)","slug":"dont-mind-dyin-dmd","status":"published","description":null,"album_id":null,"streets":1,"source_type":"s3","source":"file","lyrics":"I never been the one to talk about my feelings,\r\nBuh imma open up these blinds and let you peak for a minute,\r\nI have a question though,\r\nWould I be a bad person if i let go?\r\nAnd by that i mean of life,\r\nCause pain is all i feel,\r\nSuicide is in my mind,\r\nAfter all these meds I took i still ain't feelin fine,\r\nGuess these doctors lie,\r\nSo what's the point of therapy,\r\nI think i should just cut my wrist \r\nAnd let this blood flow out,\r\nWonder if I'd be remembered though,\r\nCause all my life I been a nobody,\r\nI've never been perfect, \r\nSo I guess I'm not worth it,\r\nBuh All this pain that I'm feeling, do i really deserve it?\r\nHuh do I?\r\nIt even hurts to fall asleep,\r\nCoz this pain follows in my dreams,\r\nI Been in a dark place for so long, \r\ncan't even dream of light at the end of the tunnel,\r\nHow lifeless x2\r\n\r\nGod I'm tired of faking happiness,\r\nI'm tired of living tied up,\r\nI wanna be free from the pain,\r\nI'm pushing everybody from me,\r\nBuh my girl GOD i don't wanna lose her,\r\nShe deserves much better than my distance,\r\nBuh How can I love, when all i feel is hate about myself, \r\nI really love her Lord, she's tryna help me find myself,\r\nBuh it's like I've disappeared,\r\nI'm no longer existing,\r\nGuess happiness is not for all us,\r\nWho am I?\r\nI'm the living form of pain,\r\nI see a white coffin,\r\nIs this how i find my peace,\r\nI hope mom you find peace in this if you don't hear from me,\r\nTell my lil sister that i love her,\r\nI'll always looked out for her,\r\nI made a promise and I'll forever keep it on her,\r\nEven after when I'm gone, she will never be alone,\r\nI'm scared to even tell her bout what her bro is going,\r\nCoz she's young to understand,\r\nLil sis if you grow up without me there,\r\nKnow I'll be guardian\r\nI love you star.","download_count":79,"play_count":0,"restrict_download":0,"generated_thumbnail":null,"flag_count":0,"download_count_24":2,"download_count_24_at":"2021-04-17","reupload_sent":0,"thumb_path":"https:\/\/s3.eu-central-1.amazonaws.com\/sol-assets\/uploads\/public\/5ea\/9bc\/f74\/thumb_396618_300_300_0_0_crop.jpg","status_reason":"published","status_reason_alt":null,"tags":[]}